my G

well, it's been awhile. i thought maybe i should give it a go again. my little guy, G, just had a birthday. he's 3 now! my baby isn't much of a baby anymore...well, except that he refuses to be potty trained. he yells, "NO! i want my diaper!" that is a whole rant in and of itself, but i prefer to gush over how much i love him at the moment.
i've said before what a trial he is, but he really is an amazing person! he is very creative, always playing little games he makes up, playing make believe. when i get home from work, he runs to me and tells me, "Mommy! i missed you!" and then as i rush past him to the bathroom(i have the bladder of a sparrow), he follows me saying, "love you mommy, love you mommy, love you mommy...mommy...mommy...(yes, g?) love you!"
i spend a lot of time on my feet at work, and have been walking/ riding public transportation since gas prices have exploded(my work gives us free metro passes!)...so, my feet and legs are usually tired and aching by the time i get home. he gives me kisses. kisses my knees, kisses my arms. "that feel better now mom?" then tells me, "sit back" so he can climb up on my lap and snuggle me for a moment...it lasts for about 5 minutes from the time i get home, and then he's off. but that 5 minutes is so special to me. just to know he is so happy to see me, that i was missed by him. he really is an incredible little person.
he got rsv when he was about 8 weeks old, and spent 3 very scary days in the hospital. ever since then, i have had him bonded in my heart in a way that only he could be. i just know that he is destined for great things...he's a big person in a very tiny body, he just fills a room. i imagine that he is a very old soul, and it is frustrating sometimes for him to be in this 3 year old's world. it is too much for him sometimes, and i know it is my job to try to help him.
i may not know how to be a perfect mom, but he makes me want to be the best mom i can be. so that he can turn in to the best man he can be, and fulfill the potential that he has.
i love my G. what would i do without him?